Marquina

Visited the Cañedo hame in Marikina two days ago. Gawd, it felt good to be back. Seeing old and familiar faces brightened up my stay there. And there's nothing like good hame cooked food. I usually go there when there's an occassion, like if it's my uncle's birthday or something. Learned that Andrea was already there, my youngest cousin, tito Ferdie's daughter. That cute wee bairn. Paulo, as usual had one of his girlfriends over, ah, Prime astonishes me with his charm. Dinnae ken how he gets those chicks. He calls 'em his only vice, LAWL, bullshit Pau. =p

Kwarto...

Going to mah room, I think that it badly needs a new air conditioning unit. Yeah, you dun need some kinda fan at night, but when the sun shines, it doesnae only shine, it burns. Damn the heat...

"Is it hot in here, or is it just me?" -Wesley Snipes, Demolition Man

Tech Deck

I bought this new toy, it's called the Tech Deck! Now, now, I know that it's been roond fer like years now, but I just recently discovered it! Like they say, idle hands is fer the devil, but not my hands! While I have mah Tech Deck, this aint fer teh devil. I even learned a new trick, teh "shove it." =p Anyway, gotta learn moar tricks, MOAR!

Ciao.

Script

Tyrande: You risked your life for me, I don't understand.

Illidan: Whatever I may be, whatever I may become in this world, know that I will always look out for you, Tyrande.

Indeed.

The search is over

Six years. Took me that long to find these pills. I looked everywhere for an S2PTR who'd consent, and now, DAMN! FINALLY! These skirmishes of mine to the slums will finally be put to an end. Everywhere I'd go, every time I feel like it, I can drop it. Illegal my ass, I've got a prescription cunt! Anyhoo, gotta go sleep now. G'mawnin.

Jason Voorhees

He lives and it's friday the thirteenth! I grew up watching horror flicks like these in the province with mah popcorn an aw. Though I remember vividly what the cryptkeeper's features are, I remember his/her stories very well. I had no way of determining its gender because of its voice. =p The Leprechaun! Now he's one character that you gotta love. I admire his spunk and his rebellious attitude, lawl. Thought that there was goAld at the end of teh rainbow? Engk! Wrong! Death awaits. He's one daft wee cunt, all the Leprechaun fans would attest to that.

Prepping up fer painting the town red.

Waiting fer mah gambling buddy to come. After that planning to drink the night away at Makati. The damn Lakers lost, mebbe because of the date? Never believed in that shit though. External Locus of Control mah yellow ass. Please dun let the intimidating tita be on mah table again else I'd lose again. Haiz, anyway gotta go.

Sayonara.

Independence Day

Thanks for your POV, now I know that I somewhat depend on persons and things to keep me going. I depend on my pills too much to keep me awake, I depend on em to get me to sleep. I depend on my pals to keep me alive, socially, that is, and I depend on them to complete my day. Come to think of it, I never was an island ever since that day, you know... that "day." Thanks fer everything, pals and pills.

"I'm all through as a human being. All you're looking at is the lingering memory of what I used to be. The most important part of me, what used to be inside, died, and I'm just functioning by rote memory."

You know, when the excitement is gone, how can you be motivated to do something? I've done almost all of the things that a boy could do in life, been there, done that. What more should I look forward to then? World weary, indeed. Everything is bland to me; I sometimes imagine that everything is in black and white, there's no color to anything anymore.

But everything'll work itself out, eventually. I've already prepared for this, everything will fall into place in time, and time is the only factor that I cannae manipulate. I'm just hoping that this waiting game doesn't kill me first.

C'est la vie!

Preoccupied

Been preoccupied with drinking for teh past week, all these vices an aw, gambling and such. Been drunk on friday, saturday, sunday, yesterday. Seeesh. A friend o'mine had this party at her bar, gosh, the beautiful people, they were like exuberantly overflowing, pardon the redundancy. =p Fancied meeting Milan there... thanks for the pep talk eh.

Pera, kwarta, dinero, money, SALAPI.

I dunno what to do with my money. Even though the fucking cocktails, alcohol, the goddamn gambling runs... haiz, better save up for mah birthday. Every fucking day, I celebrate. I'm running outta ideas on how to party on the 16th of October. Oh wait, I hafta organize something too on the fourth of July. Haiz, eleven years, haven't missed a single beat... well, kantotinkofit I did pala, like three years ago.

Anyway, ciao.

Moments in our lives

Drinking with a few old friends, feeling the breeze on my face, and gallivanting the night away. Small but very meaningful moments. Haven't seen the gang fer like five months now, and I missed 'em. I can't seem to recall the last time I barhopped in Makati, catching a few glimpses of the people roond, searching fer old faces, old acquaintances. Living like a kid again, damn. After chilling at this joint near Rockwell, we decided to head hame. God, how I missed the expressway. The wind on mah face, a feeling that I thought I'd never miss, but apparently, I did.

Met this chick, Rica, was her name. Got the face of an angel. And when she moved, the way she glided across the room. And dun start with the body, fahk! Sexier than fahk! F-A-H-K! Her sweet scent, oh it makes me feel... er, L... LIVELY. Yes, lively. =p

Planned on catching up with the gang tomorrow, at TN's place. It's her birthday "Y'ALL." Watching the carbs lately, so I wun be eating her special CARBonara. NO PUN WAS INTENDED. All this drama and stress is catching up on me, though I keep ignoring it, I'd eventually need some people to talk to about it. Though we may've not seen each other fer almost half a year nao, friendships like these seem to last. Am thankful fer that.

Simple things amuse complex minded people, and I believe that I am a very complex person. Things like these, I cherish. I adore. Ava adore baby. But the big things? Not as much as these. Though I may over analyze things, I tend to simplify em. Turning something hard to grasp into something that's easy to comprehend, I believe, is a talent that I possess.

Wish everything was as simple as 1, 2, and 3. Nevertheless, it's all about how you see things. Perception then comes in.

Jagged little pills.

Recently, I've been unable to sleep at night. I tend to sleep at around 5-7 in the morning. I need to cure masel. So instead of forcing masel to sleep, I drug masel to sleep. Ordered like thirty or so Vs. Also, I think that I'm getting far too dependent on these blue soft gel capsules that mah sister gave me. Whatchamacallit? I fergot.

Life goes on, Mr. Reyes.

I feel for you, Bok. Kapatid na ang turing ko sayo, parang nawalan din ako. My deepest condolences. May she rest with the angels and hang out with your pop. We'll see them when we get there. If we ever get there, that is.

Save a place for me.(That is one good tattoo, Miguel)

On life + gambling and alts

An old (sorry Brad, I really needed to include that =p) friend, shared this with me: "life is a lot like poker, sometimes you must learn to fold or go all in." I've thought about that throughout the day and it made a lot of sense. Yeah, I think a lot of people can relate with that, I for one can. I've been raising the stakes recently in this round. Have also gone all in previous games, but the thing is I never folded. The stakes were high back then, I never thought that I'd lose, but that's life, it fucks you up.

This round, I'm winning, but I don't really know how much this streak will last. If this keeps up, I can laugh my way t0 the bank BUT if I lose... LAWL there's nothing to lose, bitch. I'll still laugh my way to the bank!

On Jekyll and Hyde...

Too much time has been spent on playing the former, it's time to play the latter again. So this is how a villain feels, and I fucking missed it. But in this theatric, we don't know what the script is like, and how its supposed to end. If so, then I'd rather play the part that I know oh so very well.

Don't you know eleven years is a long time, to freeze a heart, eleven years is long enough to make a boy insane.

It's been eleven fucking years since the thing at Charles' Creek. Damnit, I never learned to let go of what happened that night. You changed me, you changed me into this. Dinnae ken if I should thank you for that or hate you for it. I'm a bit unsure what to do if I saw you again. The last time we met was like when? Five years ago, was it? Roond the corner to mah place. You still had me jittery, you always excited me. Emo bitch.

Anyway, enough boot you. I've been thinking lately that the 48 Laws of Power can be correlated with the topics in Organizational Behavior. Take for example the law wherein you should reinvent yourself, I think that the eleventh or twelfth chapter of the book(Organizational Behavior) talks about change too. I dunno if this is just a coincidence or did Greene take some of the laws from the book? Hmmm...

Anyway, thinking of getting masel a 5x5 Rubik's or getting mah eyebrow pierced. Both of em cost the same. Oh fuck, wait, I forgot. I'm rich, I can afford both, LAWL.

Ciao.

Paalam Sampaguita

Paalam Sampaguita, bakit ka lalayo pa?

Everybody's leaving the Philippines nowadays. Everybody's dreaming to find their fortune in foreign countries, believing that they'll have a better chance at making it big there. The brain drain is killing the country, cannae they see eh? People that are and were dear to mah heart has left, and this stubborn heart misses em all. Enough! No time for idle emo talk!

Have done nothing productive today, slept again fer like 12 hours. Looking forward to what things might be in store fer me tomorrow. Oh, and grats to Baban fer being the HRMS president, what's in store fer the org this year eh?

Lace, you're in teh land down undah! Bring me a didgeridoo eh? The big one. Imma pay fer it. Dun eat vegemite, it'll turn yer stomach upside down.

Ciao.