Someday I'll fly in Neverland!

Curfew! Damn this curfew! I had a million things planned for this day. Damn you Trillanes for staging another stupid "coup." Next time, you asshole, read the 48 Laws of Power and plan all the way to the end!

Nevertheless, I never run out of things to do. Somehow I'm still thankful that I still keep contingency plans if ever a couple of my devised plans fail. Drinking 'til dawn has never been a problem with me, so that's what I'm gonna do tonight! Leaving at 11PM, and no damn cop is gonna stop me!

Second to the right, and straight 'til morning!

Neverland, a dream. Indeed it is. I've been dreaming of living there since I was a kid. My favorite movie is Hook, even! But I doubt if I'll ever be able to fly in Neverland, even with the help of Tink's pixie dust. Though I'll try my best to, like what Robin Williams did.

Happy thoughts!

Happy thoughts?

Think of happy thoughts... that struck me last night. For the past 21 years, I felt as I've had alexithymia. LoL, she also told me that whenever I laughed, I always pondered upon the joke. Was she telling me that I was taking everything seriously? Told me that I needed to unwind more too. Er, was I so uptight? I was always a thinking person, trying to rationalize everything. Trying to find out the truth about things. Sheesh, was I always worrying about things? Asked her if she had any long term goals. Told me she had none. Now, why can't I be like that? I don't want to plan everything and have contingency plans for them, the stress... but I can't help it.

We wanted both to become photographers. I've always wanted to be one, but I can't afford a 10 megapixel camera. It's like 30-50k.

I told her that I'd be a better person for the next "big thing" that's gonna happen. Pero matagal pa siguro yun. Gaaah, writer's block!

Crashing at the 28th Floor

Every week I crash at someone else's place. Last week I crashed at Jac's place and at Alex's office. Last night, I crashed at Milan's pad in Cityland! Treated her to dinner, had a few beers then went to her unit and drank some more. Talked about our exes, life(again), and lots of stuff. Finished at 4:00. Was too drunk to drive home so I slept there instead with her dugs.

Haven't updated the blog 'coz I don't feel like typing for the past few days. Dinnae ken what to say or share.

Heeeh, writer's block. Puta! Wala akong maisulat!

I don't wind up my spring on sundays

As you can see here, the Tagaytay sun wasn't helping in winding up my spring, and it's a sunday pa! I don't wind up my spring on sundays anymore. Damn sun, ruining my much needed forty winks. I hate it too when people take my picture while I'm unable to pose properly! Pretty much enjoyed the night(very much indeed!) but the drive back home, ugh, was horrible.

I don't enjoy sundays anymore. A lot of my friends always seem to be missing on that particular day. I prefer to sleep through it with the help of a couple of Vs(wish I had some on me yesterday)

This is a very crappy blog update IMO. Anyway, gotta go back to school. Catch you guys later!

Mahirap talaga magmahal ng syota ng iba

I don't know why the hell... What the F?! Dinnae ken I'm so attracted to women who are already in a relationship. Mebbe because of the challenge? Mebbe because of the fact that I'm more "manlier" than their BFs?(HELL YEAH!) Mebbe because it's easier?(adage: mas madaling makahuli ng manok pag nakatali) I really don't know. yeah, it's very unethical but the fact that I don't pursue them proves that I do not utilize Machiavellian ways. I am a low Mach person, based on the Personality Attribute Assessment of myself, and I have case facts to prove it! LoL, again, why do I relate everything to INDIBEH?!

INDIBEH INDIBEH INDIBEH!

The course, I makes me feel as if I am Maiev. It's the hunt that motivates me, the hunt for the Betrayer, Illidan. She was so determined in getting Illidan. That dedication, that determination, her resolve... she was so adamant. In the end, after getting Illidan, she felt nothing. Not even the sense of accomplishment. Her drive was the hunt. She was consumed by it. I hope that I won't get consumed by this course too though. Exag naman...

So the ants became dinosaurs eh?

When people makes stories up, they kinda exaggerate on facts. Do they do it to make it more interesting? When I tell things about shit and aw, I don't exaggerate. I use words that are more suitable for the story. I like telling stories about other people and their lives. I sometimes tell them jovially humorous or as it is. Is telling something differently from what actually happened a lie? Mebbe. Is bending the truth a lie? A white lie perhaps. What is the truth then? The way we perceive things isn't the truth, it's just an assumption of what really happened. Should we not draw to conclusions then? I believe so; I think we should know all the factors involved in what really happened and then conclude, but we can't really determine and assess everything, we won't really be able to find out the truth about things.

I don't know, I'm just typing and not thinking.

HAH! Blabbering blabbering blah blah. Blogger blogger blah blah.

But I don't know what to do with the tossed salad and scrambled eggs. Scrambled eggs all over my face, what is a boy to do? Good night Seattle, we love you!

Disney, Zenki, the Transformers among other things.

Instead of talking about and reviewing our notes for the upcoming graded recitation in INDIBEH(ano pa ba?), Baban, Pepe, Sheila, Carlo and I talked about The Little Mermaid, Aladdin, Zenki, Shaider, GI Joe, the Transformers and the various shows and movies that we've watched when we were still kids. We even sang aloud, in Starbucks, "A Whole New World," as for me, I soloed "A Part of Your World." Hell, nobody'd care, we OWN Starbucks, LoL. I, for one, enjoyed singing and talking about these things. Although we consider ourselves as adults, you still can't take away the fact that we are still in that stage wherein our maturity meets the child inside. A little glimpse of what we used to be.



This makes me miss my childhood more. I'll be eating supper in a bit, so I hafta go. Catch you later!

KALASAG NI BADJULA!

The Study Group!

The other "members" of the group weren't included in the pic.

Relaxxx

Was sooo bored after eating lunch. There was nothing to do, really. So I decided to get some things done with the SSG. We didn't hang out at Starbucks though, just crashed at Joe's place at Burgundy Tower instead. After discussing some INDIBEH stuff, we decided to destress ourselves with the help of Red Horse and some lambanog! LoL, had fun talking about shit and stuff, watching some 3GP porn, and sharing little insights on life. I'd love to get drunk with these guys. Inquired if they would mind drinking later, but given our schedule and the distance of their houses from the school they decided not to. Was up for a few beers after class though. I even told them that after this term, I'm gonna treat the group at the resto and then, hopefully, drink the night away to celebrate the end of INDIBEH, we fucking hope that it'll end this term. We need those prayers so keep 'em coming!

The HR Students OWN the Study Area. Indeed. Everyday you'll be able to find a fookin lot of HR students in M403-m405, they should rename it to the HR Den instead. Talked to a coupla batchmates about making shirts for HR students who passed INDIBEH. Here's the design: on the front it'll show how many times you've taken the subject, and your grade'll be on the back. And Bello, a classmate of mine when I was still studying in OBMC-GH, enjoyed talking to him! Didn't know that I possessed very "assholic" values before, LoL! Even reminded me of the times when Oyo Boy and I would almost beat the hell outta each other.

Oyo Boy: Tite mo may kuko!
Kingina: Tite mo may malaking nunal!
Oyo Boy: Tang ina ka sapakan tayo!
Kingina: Tang ina ka pagtapos netong klase!

Ahhh, this subject will either make us or break us, really.

Relaxxx. Just go with the flow. Don't fight it, revel in it.

This is Kingina signing off, 'til next time. Gooooood morning Vietnam!

Pretty much routine

A normal day, a simple day. Who wouldn't want that eh? Got home at around 11:30AM from Jac's place. Damn, now that's what I call a crib! Too fookin big for three people. Got a movie date with Khai(Jac's spouse) this week, we're gonna watch One More Chance... Hell yeah! imma watch that! Spent like 5 hours with the Starbucks Study Group, an hour at class and half an hour interviewing Hao(the Vietnamese chick).

Now I'm trying to figure out if I should type the case study for INDIBEH that's due tomorrow or play WOW. After that I don't know if I should go to the gym or just sleep. Pretty much routine, indeed.

Again, who wouldn't want that? The guys at Starbucks talked about little facts in our lives, shared a coupla thoughts and talked about a simple life compared to a complicated life. We all came to a common ground: "Simpleng buhay, simpleng problema." Amen to that.

I'd give anything to live a day like this again. Everything complicated seems so much simpler.

The King of Pain

Quitting is not that hard to do. I've quit a number of times. I've quit school before. I've quit going out on late night parties. I've quit gallivanting.(LoL) Also, I've quit taking drugs before. Currently, I've been taking the shit again, but after a coupla chats with old friends and doing some thinking about it, I've decided to quit.

I have stood here before in this pouring rain, with the world turning circles running 'round my brain. I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign, but it's my destiny to be the King of Pain.

Thinking Aloud

Being the third wheel isn't so bad. Actually, I've missed being the third wheel. I've been the third wheel a lot of times when Gino, Belai and I would go out. Ah, I remember those early high school days when we used to party all night. Wish I was in High School again. But, then again, High School never ends.

I miss our house in South Bay, the late night drinking sessions, the drugs, the music, the laughter, my swing, my porn, my comforters, my DVDs, everything! Not only have I missed SB, I've missed a lot of things. Gosh. I'm thinking of moving to Marikina once I get a laptop and a net connection. I'll stay with my uncles and cousin at our family house there. Mainit nga lang pag umaga sa room ko. I'll get a dug, not a dog, a dug too.

The Vietnamese Chick

I've had my eyes on this Vietnamese chick for quite sometime now. She has this great body, almost my height, great personality. I think we'll get along very well. Maybe I'll ask her out on monday just to get some bite to eat, hopefully she'll come. She lives with her uncle in Vito Cruz.(Goodie! Malapit!)

Lipat Bahay

On sunday, the Malate gang and I will go visit Jac and Khai and baby Kei 'cuz they're gonna move from their house near Benilde to Tondo. There's gonna be a lot of drinks, a lot of food, and a lot of friends! Pray that I won't do another Schumacher on the way home, I've got four of my buddies in the car and a lot of emotional baggage in the head.

Chicken Breast and Veggies

That's all I eat everyday. I eat the chicken on lunch, eat the salad at dinner. Wish I had some wine to go with it, or some sherry perhaps. I miss drinking wine, sigh. Haven't had a decent glass for years now. I actually can become a someliel someday. "Ah, the bouquet complements the stench of your double limburger quarter pounder very well, sir."

Another day, just believe. Another day, just breathe.

The guys at the Student Publications Office told me to submit three(3) articles on sports. I browsed http://www.kingina.blogspot.com(my old blog) for my VERY opinionated writeups about the World Cup last year. Dinnae ken if that'll do, but it's they're sports articles, right? That's how I write and that's how I intend to write for the paper.

Starbucks Study Group

We own Starbucks! LoL! I enjoy sitting there, savoring my Toffee Nut Frap for hours on end while discussing INDIBEH, doing small talks about life and watching those oh so beautiful people pass by. A good way to spend the day, in my opinion. Educational and entertaining at the same time. And the new Starbucks Planner too! I'll get my hands on you this December!

The Duanas

I wanted to drop by Cityland and visit the Duanas in their apartment before going home. It's been so long, just wanted to keep in touch. Unfortunately, I didn't have the time to visit them. ... Whenever I visit their store in UM, Borlo's not there. As for Milan, she doesn't frequent the shop anymore, I think. Also, I heard Apple, my grade school classmate, drinks at this bar in front of Borlo's shop. I heard her significant other owns the place. But I think I like the bar beside 'em better, plays Manson and aw.

Journalist

A writer does not write in order to live, a writer lives in order to write.

I applied for the school paper a while ago... not as an writer who writes opinions in the editorial page, but as a sports writer! LoL! It's the only spot open eh! Ever since I was a frosh I wanted to write, now, if they find my article(s) amusing mebbe they'll accept me in the school papaer. Astig! I'll get to meet these hot chicks in the swimming team, criticize the basketball team dahil sobrang bano(they always end up last in the NCAA), I can sit at the front row wherenver there's a UAAP game... OMG, imagine the perks! I'll get recognized too!

INDIBEH Exam - Values, Attitudes, Behavior

I think I really did well on the exam, I can't afford to take this again next term. A friend of mine took INDIBEH for like 7 times. I won't be able to stand all the case studies, reports, papers and whatnot that Ms. Esleta gives us. I don't even have time for my other subjects because of this subject. Pero, after this, it's all downhill.

The Study Group

I think I'll be able to get my new Starbucks planner before mid December. Yay! The INDIBEH study group always meets at Starbucks at Torre Lorenzo. Dun wanna spend all of my money on coffee though. But the Toffee Nut Frap tastes heavenly! The Peppermint Mocha is exquisite! But what I miss the most is the Kid's Hot Chocolate, tamang tama ang tamis, tamang tama ang timpla, tamang tama ang init... Pambata nga talaga! Well, what can I say, I'm a kid at heart.

The Gym

I haven't worked out for like a week now. Too lazy to run the treadmill, too lazy to burn fat. Haaay, i'll just get back on my diet. I don't eat rice anymore, but I did eat some last night 'cuz I didn't eat for like one and a half days.

Ciao!

King's Choice

It's not a habit, it's cool. I feel alive.

For the past three fucking years, I haven't felt this. A comeback? Perhaps. Robin's back too. The bad thing about this are the sleepless nights, the feeling after a coupla hours and mental stability. Money constraints? None. I'll spend my fucking money the way I want to.

Argumentum ad hominem.

Can you discern the difference between what's good and evil? If you can give a suffering person a somewhat temporary moment of relief from everything, a moment of heaven away from hell, is that bad? No. Want a rebuttal? An argumentum ad hominem would suffice.

Leave me alone, but don't leave me alone with my gun else I'd shoot all of you.

Am I going insane? Hell no, I'm just doing my thing to relieve stress. Weird as it may seem, try to put yourself in my place. You'll know what I mean.

Tired of the search for answers.

Instead of using my deductive and inductive reasoning, I've decided to leave everything unanswered. I remember this exam I had, there was this very difficult question wherein you have to explain and apply the different theories on behaviour. What was my answer, you might ask. "I don't know."

Then I left.

You can always ignore everything, it's your choice anyway. Well, this is MY choice. I don't give a fuck about what people think. Their opinions mean nothing to me. Think what you will, I'm better than you(Robin).

This is the new shit, stand up and admit!

Change is the only constant thing in this world. -Karl Marx

Hell yeah! People change, they may progress or regress. As for me, I seem to have progressed. I seem to have evolved into something harder, better, faster, stronger... Daft Punk eh? How much have you changed? Yeah, you're on your way down. Trust me.

Endure, and in enduring grow strong.

I do not pity people who live seemingly charming lives wherein they consider that everything's all right, happy go lucky people. Reality check! The truth will hit you hard, my friends. Life can fuck you up when you least expect it. Oh you better be prepared. Been there, done that. It was a messy experience indeed.

Now, I revel in my state of alexythymia.(LoL, how can one revel with alexithymia?)

Anyway, as you can see, this is my new blog. As my life takes a new and unknown direction, I want to take everything down in writing(for me to review after this chapter draws to an end, mebbe 3 or 4 years? Dinnae ken.)

FREEDOM!

My life's like an unfinished book. I would've loved a tragic ending in the 5th chapter, but my mind convinced my heart. No, actually it consumed it. A piece of my mind: when deciding on life changing decisions, use only your brain, don't let your emotions get in the way, dumbass.

There's like 6 Chapters in my life, and they are:

1 - My childhood days
2 - Gradeschooler!
3 - High School never ends
4 - Culture Shock: University life as a frosh
5 - Bee
6- (I haven't decided on what to call it yet, something drug related mebbe?)

Who knows what to expect in this new chapter? A lot of sex, drugs and rock and roll!(well, I'd rather listen to Maksim than Manson now)

I love people who are always on time.

Anyway, catch you later! Gotta do someone, er, something rather.